so. a week behind in human geography. depressed. hate myself. want to die. purposefully ignored a phone call from hamza yesterday. was imagining writing a suicide note. basically feel like if I can't manage school, then I can't manage life. everyone would be better off without me anyways. just am a waste of time, money, and energy for everybody else. everyone has other, better people in their lives, so they'd be fine without me.
mom's disappointed in me yay.
the only non-depressing thing: had an idea for a male visok. but I guess even that could be considered depressing 'cause I'm still incapable of working undistracted.
edit: p.s. please don't make any, "omg amanda's gonna hurt herself" phone calls. I'm not going to be doing anything, couldn't if I really wanted to. I don't want mom getting more pissed off than she already is.
About Me
- Acey M.
- I’m a Christian nerd who likes to write. I tend to be rather dramatic, whether on stage or in day-to-day life. I strive to do many great, cool things, though I make a lot of mistakes. In the end, I’m pretty much just another teenage girl clumsily trying to manage life.
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would be better off without me anyways.
I wouldn't.
if you need to, you're more than welcome to call my cell. if I don't answer, I'll trying calling back as soon as I'm available.
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