"Life can be lived, life can be loved...alone."

[Last music played: Learn to be Lonely sung by Minnie Driver]
[Current mood: Contemplative]

I've been feeling a little more depressed lately. Probably a mix between Tim being home and me adjusting and trying to get over Casey. I've been working on math this morning when I randomly thought of the Phantom of the Opera, more specifically Learn to be Lonely.

In short, I've let me console myself with emo-ness this morning, but I'm starting to feel a bit better.

I've realized that I seem to get myself stuck in situations of unrequited love. I know I'm young, but I can be very serious; so even if it's just a crush, I take it seriously and get ahead of myself. That makes it all the more disappointing when my dreams are crushed. I get stuck in similar situations that have nothing to do with love, also.

My characters are definitely facets of myself. When I was listening to Learn to be Lonely, I imagined my character, Ahikam, crying softly. Not into a pillow sobbing, just standing there listening to the music like I was and coming to a similar realization: "I have to learn to live alone." Just standing there with tears streaming slowly down his cheeks.

This is where I've realized that Ahikam seems to be my outcast, somewhat emo muse, while Melki is my, "pissed at the world and its stupidities, ever angry at how moronic human beings continue to be." Layla muse is similar to Melki muse, but instead just gets angry at specific people and lets those she loves near her, though she's still rather bitter.

I guess those three characters show the most negative aspects of my persona. Yay for me.