I want to write, I love my characters. But...I can't. It's like the passion is gone. I love my characters, but it seems like I don't care about them, if that makes any sense.
What can I do to get myself able to write my story again? Is there some sort of trick? Or can I not because I'm continually stiffled by my home enviroment, and so much of my energy and creativity is spent just trying to laugh at it all and get through all of my days?
It's true I tend to write better in the morning or afternoon. Could that be because I actually have the energy to do it? This last June, when my parents were gone for several days, I was able to write a roughly 10k word fanfic over the course of a few days.
It's just now...I feel so incredibly depressed. Could it be that no matter how much I dream, no matter how much I want it, these things are unattainable? That I can't finish this story before college? That I don't possess the energy nor patience nor ability to complete it due to my undesired circumstances?
I think I need to be doing some major re-thinking, and go back to find someone that I've forgotten. Someone I thought I could do without. Because I don't want to let myself wallow here and let myself become a victum of my situations.
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