i don't want to be depressing people. but i just can't handle mom treating like my problems are insignificant. i know she hates me, i've heard her say it. but i can't just go on living where i'm trying to please everybody else.
i wish that people would realize this is hard for me and say, "i'm here for you, let me help you" instead of, "do this, this, this, this--OH MY GOD, HOW CAN YOU NOT BE DOING THIS, YOU UNGRATEFUL BITCH?" i can't handle this verbal and emotional disregard anymore. i've already heard today how mom's more concerned about losing money than she is for losing me. she really doesn't care at all or ever.
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I LOVE YOU AMANDA! I'm here for you! I'm in counseling, and it seems like we have a bit of the same root problem, so if you want to hear what my counselor has said to me, let me know. I'll try to call you this weekend or sometime when I have a reasonable hour of the day open. I totally related to your blog posts because it's been what I've been screaming the past few weeks. I've tried to kill myself a couple of times and I've been so emotional otherwise....I'm just starting to get a bit better I love you lots and I miss you, and you are one of the greatest people in my life. I'll talk to you soon! <3
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