Good morning.

Unfortunately, I kinda woke up this morning thinking about stuff that was irritating me. (woah, nice. Instant spell-checker. So, blogger's like Microsoft Word now?)

So, yeah. The stuff that's being annoying me...

I'm really not sure whether I want to be involved in 4-H camp this year anymore. I mean, who would want to be a part of a group, deciding what's going to happen at camp, if nobody else thinks your ideas or comments are meaningful? If your opinions are immediately disregarded by another member?

I'm looking at you, Rachel G. Just because you're all effin' popular and because you were on the Program Staff last year doesn't mean all of your ideas are magical and wonderful and everybody else's aren't. I saw how you COMPLETELY changed what idea you were routing for for camp JUST because Jackie and Kevin didn't want to do that. Good job, looking for other peoples' support for your own decisions. Good job, having little backbone in your decisions but being completely enthusiastic about them until you see that the people who matter to you don't like that idea.

I just...I can't do this anymore. I don't exactly fit in, and whenever I do choose to speak up, everyone thinks my comment is meaningless. I could list all the things that happened at the last meeting that have fueled these feelings, but I don't want to be more accusatory than I already have.

On a note other than my frustrations, I'm watching Petite Princess Yucie right now.

I'm kinda worried...I haven't heard from Casey for a while...Maybe I really did tick him off. I guess it wouldn't be a surprise if I did. I can pretty much taint any relationship. There's no relationship I can have that I can't mess up by opening my mouth. Le sigh.

...I hope my brothers get up soon...